Description from Goodreads:
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.
Miss Riki’s Review:
This book is all at once heart-wrenching and life-affirming. Suicide is a tough topic to tackle in a novel, and the added tension of having two teens who are seeking support for that most personal act made for a very compelling and unique story.
Aysel is both snarky and smart in her way, yet also broken and pained. She’s messy and real and everything a YA protagonist should be. The way that she links physics to matters more of the heart is intriguing and works on so many levels. Roman is complex and difficult to like, yet you cannot help but feel for him and the enormous burden of guilt that he carries with him every day. Both teens experience depression in very different ways, yet seek the same solution to ending their pain. Their depiction is a wonderful way to show that depression manifests in different ways in different people, yet it’s still such a universal feeling.
This book is lovely and heartbreaking, yet still so hopeful. It was a book that I couldn’t put down once I started reading. I had so many emotions while reading this book, feeling so much for these characters. I highly recommend this novel.