For those of you new to Refreshingly Riki, I have decided to participate in the 30 Day Letter Challenge in which I will write 30 letters to various folks who have touched my life directly as well as inadvertently. The letter for Day Fifteen is to be written to the person that I miss the most. I’ve chosen to write this letter to my younger, more carefree self.
Dear Younger Riki,
It’s been a long time since we’ve sat down and daydreamed together and I miss you so much. I miss how we used to spend hours dreaming up our future and what might be. We had no cares about what other people think of us and no boundaries to our visions. Anything was possible and we wanted it all.
There were long summer days writing words that nobody would ever see. That writing was among the most free and uninhibited we ever produced. If we wanted the cat to have purple fur and twelve toes, then by God it would be that way. Critics be damned; it was our story! Now things are more constrained. I feel the pressures to conform to what is “supposed” to be. My writing falls into the very boring category of safe, even when it is likely nobody will ever see it.
In life I am also more restrained. I have seen things fall apart for lesser reasons and although I have a plan for my future, it is less expansive and fun than it used to be. I wish you were here to remind me that anything is still possible. Your bubbly and enthusiastic excitement for the future would be a welcome distraction to the tedious task of planning what is yet to come for me.
Just talking to you in this brief letter has reminded me of how good you were for me. I am looking forward to tapping into your youthful fervor and finding ways to infuse your joy into my daily life. Don’t be a stranger. Come and visit and maybe stay awhile.