Coinciding with the July 2012 Ultimate Blog Challenge, I have decided to also participate in the 30 Day Letter Challenge in which I will write 30 letters to various folks who have touched my life directly as well as inadvertently. The letter for Day Twelve is to be written to the person who has caused me the most pain.
To My Inner Critic:
You are by far the cruelest person I know. You are excessively intolerant and your constant running comments are nothing short of scathing. You never tire of making me feel small and pointing out my flaws as if I don’t already see them. No minor imperfection has a chance of escaping your watchful consideration.
I don’t remember you always being so unkind. There was a time that you were supportive and forgiving; complimentary even. You knew your place and took direction when you were out of line. You let me know there was beauty and talent, even when there was plenty of room to grow. Now your look at the worthy is fleeting and you see only imperfection and the failure.
I’m writing you this letter to tell you that the abuse stops right now. I will no longer accept your caustic reactions and biting commentary. You no longer have the power to make me feel small. Your destructive days are numbered, my friend.
From this moment forward I will only hear observations that motivate and honor my hard work. I welcome you to remind me that things are not as bad as you have made them seem in recent days. Just a few of the words to be eradicated from your vocabulary are fat, lazy, untalented, weak, stupid, and unlovable. Of course this does not exhaust the options for unacceptable language, but it is a start. I advise you to start brushing up on your optimistic linguistics tout de suite. There is no time to waste!
I leave you to think about what we have discussed here today and look forward to meeting you tomorrow at the mirror. As I look upon my reflection, I expect that my demands will have been answered. This is sure to be a better arrangement for both of us.
Your exasperated friend,